Sunday, September 14, 2014

pink orange red

Pretty happy with these photos! I took them with my mju II using revelog kolor film for the first time. I didn't quite know how the color was going to turn out but i think they look really nice i especially love that there is a couple different colors going on in one photograph. The only downside is how dark and fuzzy they are. Some were taken in perfect sunny conditions and some were taken in the dark/indoors with flash and somehow they all look the same. It was a fun film but i don't know if i would shell out 12 dollars a roll again.

Thursday, September 11, 2014

broken hearted

some more of my instagram pics 

Into the soaps from Firebird etsy shop. I bought the top which smells of woodsmoke, burning leaves, and beeswax (the bottom one is blood orange, cedarwood, and patchouli). A part of me thinks buying luxurious handmade soaps to be kind of much but the other much larger and wiser part of me is like you deserve it girl!!! and i can't get over how cool that black bar of soap looks. I'm excited for it to come and i'll see if it's worth it to my luxrurious self to buy more because there are many other cool earthy and soothing scents.

Also this etsy shop, NH woodcraft, has given me inspiration and things to think about with their spoons that were crafted with the inspiration of the natural flow of wood and nature

mending my own broken heart with retail therapy, nature, knowledge, inspiration, and creation.

Thursday, September 4, 2014

U got the look

acne jacket/PABLO DE GERARD DAREL sweater/jacquemus skirt/proenza schouler dress/JW anderson dress/vintage gianaluca gabrielli jacket
comme des garcons top/ unknown skirt/modekungun fur coat/mmm sweater/opening ceremony dress/helmut lang dress
YVEL pearl earrings/unknown tassel earings/acne necklace/mmm necklace/ann demeulemeester bag/y-3 hat/ coach bag/mmm boots/asos sandals/proenza schouler flats/puma sneakers

These are my attainable fashion goals. Most of these things are designer but i specifically chose pieces that didn't have too much detail, intricate patterns or prints, or otherwise felt "too designer" (besides the tabis but those are only there for that perfect metallic color). I feel like i'm getting closer to being an adult, an actual adult and not the idea of an adult i had when i was 19 where i pushed myself into this weird sterile abstract version of what an adult should look like. And through the years, my phases, emotional ups and downs, weight gains and loses, hair growth and dyes i feel i'm at a pretty good place with how i look. But one thing i realized is that i want to wear things that flatter my body and i want to look pretty and i feel like i shouldn't have to "dress easy" and compensate those things without looking visually interesting and feeling stimulated at the idea of my outfits. The fashion i create on my polyvore, the editorials that i save, and the runway pictures i reblog inspire a lot of things but there is a vast difference between that fashion and how i dress in real life. The reality is i'm short and chubby and i can't afford the luxe designer clothes that i sought after. So i'm stuck sifting through the likes of target, kohls, tj maxx, thrift stores, and asos looking for classic pieces and trying to find something with just a little detail to it that makes it feel special. The good thing about this is i know exactly what i want and i know what i'm looking for but even with that it becomes exhausting and feels fruitless. But lately i've discovered a couple new things that look good on my body that i feel comfortable in and introduced color to my wardrobe so i'm starting a long process of building up a collection of clothes that i can afford, represent me, are somewhat consistent with my style (without putting myself in a box), flatters my body, and still looks interesting.  

Monday, September 1, 2014


?/suehiro maruo/ lomoLeonor Fini L’envo/ ?/ prince diamond/ Prince's lovesexy album cover

Feeling all sorts of romantic vibes with this ending summer. Wet dripping flowers, baths, candles, perfumes, purples and pinks. I would put a video of prince's when 2 R in love from, in my opinion his most underrated and my most favorite, prince album Lovesexy but you know prince and his music on the internet. 

Monday, August 25, 2014

goddess of the moon stars in the sky

The teen witch vibes are hitting me hard. I'm even planning a cute magic photo shoot before summer ends and all i want to do is get my fortune told.

I'm obsessed with princess nokia. I heard about wavy spice like a year ago and i watched the dragons music video when it first came out but i never got into her until just recently. Listening to the whole metallic butterfly album i can tell you that she is special and with songs like young girls and yaya there is so much more that is going to come from her and i am so excited to see what she does in the future. And she also a really gorgeous woman with a lot of good things to say and a lot of interesting views who heavily supports women and people of color.

some of my favorite/ latest instagram pix

 (i dont know why my forehead is so TAN!?!?)
my boyfriend showed me this really cool split prism lens and i went behind his back and bought it before he could lol. It's so cool the only lame thing is i can't tell what the effect does to my fim pictures because i only shoot cameras with a viewfinder. But my boyfriend has a nice canon t70 camera which is an slr so i'm going to borrow that.

I got another roll of lomochrome purple film developed and they turned out really gorgeous. I took these with my superheadz ultra wide and slim and it was a really good fit they look like really pretty film stills. I did a roll of this previously and i was really disappointed but this time i told my local camera shop not to do color balance and i think it made a really nice difference and allowed the color to go it's fullest effect.

I have a lot of film projects in mind and i haven't been this inspired or excited in long time all i can say is i wish there was more time in the day and i wish summer wasn't ending.

Friday, August 22, 2014

feelin it

I am so fucking excited to be the virgin mary for halloween. I am seriously going to have to start this costume sometime relatively soon because its going to take forever because i want to look magical, gallant, and ornate. I am planning on finding a simple dress in the white/nude/brown spectrum and have my friend paint the sacred heart with the rays. Then i'm either going to find a pretty piece of lace to wear as a veil over my head of use a piece of red or blue fabric and then make a golden crown somehow i'm not even remotely sure of what i could make it out of but i'm sure i will figure it out i want it to be big and spiky like the one fka twigs wears in her two weeks video. As for make up i'm either going for super nude eyes and dark red lips like the one gaultier shot or a bronzed out eye and i'm heavily considering blood tears.